3/02/2011

Jon Frederik Band

The Jon Frederik Band is a band that I've loved for quite sometime now. I first got into them when I heard their song "The Great Pretender" on the Yu-Gi-Oh! The Movie Soundtrack back when I was in Junior High School. They've been broken up for some time now but I still love them to bits. Especially their song "Cry of a Generation", which is literally impossible to find these days. So, I made a video of it and put it on Youtube, along with a couple of other songs. I plan on uploading more. But until then, here's the videos that I have uploaded.

Let me know what you think of them!













Oh, and here's the actual music video for "The Great Pretender"



:P

2/28/2011

Update 2011

You know?

I always forget that I still have this thing. It was pretty relevant for a little while, when I needed to vent, complain, or tell a story.

I go back and read through my posts, and even I want to smack me with all of my venting and complaining. It's... Obnoxious. And for that my friends, I am sorry. It does feel nice to get things out, but maybe from now on I'll just keep them to myself and my Laptop.

As for story telling... I don't have any stories to tell. Not much really happens in my life these days. I guess I could tell stories about work, but even then those wouldn't be too interesting to read about because nothing happens at work, either!

I'd like to start blogging again, I thoroughly enjoy it. From now on I'll try to keep these posts strictly about stories, news articles, movie/music/anime/video game reviews, art updates, song lyric updates, short stories, etc. The stuff that you, my friends, would be more interested in reading.

I'll try to update as much as I can.

If you have any suggestions, let me know.

;P

8/08/2010

Game Over.

Its over between Angel and I.

She decided that she'd rather torture herself and be miserable with her ex because she knows that she will never get over her and will never let her go.

So she let me go instead. The best thing that will ever happen to her.

She said that she doesn't want to hurt me anymore, so she has to let me go.

It is true though. All of the Ex baggage took its toll on me quite a bit. She did so many shitty things to Angel during our ten and a half month run, and before then too. But she would never let her go and STILL wants to be with her.

So be it. They can have each other.

I never really fit into Angel's world, anyway.

I couldn't stand her friends. She couldn't stand my interests and a good majority of my music.

Throughout our relationship, it felt like I was doing all of the fighting for us. It was a constant chase after her and near the end I was extremely exhausted from it.

Ten and a half months and I think three to four of them we were official. I don't regret anything though. I had the time of my life during those times. I met new people, made new friends, had a lot of new experiences, and learned that it is possible to fall in love more than once.

Life is going to be tough without her as my partner, but I will survive. I survived before... I can do it again. It wont be easy, though. Especially this time.

Angel became apart of me. When I'm not around her, I feel incomplete. Empty. I really hope over time I feel complete again.

If, in the future, she decides she wants me back (which I KNOW she will), I will make her work for it like I've worked for her the past ten and a half months. She will have to go through my mother first. Lol

Like I said... I do not regret anything. I love her very much and always will, but our time is up. For now, I'm going to just work on myself. Build my life back up. Pay more attention to my friends (the very little I have left), make new friends, work harder on finding a job and getting into school, and just work on me. Figure out what I want.

For now, peace.

6/28/2010

Nostalgia

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Why do you hate me so much? Everything between the two of us happened a long, long time ago. We have both moved on, we are both in happy relationships. So why do you still hate me?

I was young, dumb, and wreckless during our time together. I couldn't hold my temper, I couldn't stay positive, I couldn't do all of the things you wanted me to... But I was only human. I was trying to figure out who I was and where I wanted to be. I was sick, sad, and lonely... But that was me years ago. I am a completely different person now. Well, not completely. My fun side is still the same and my humor has not changed. But I have grown in a lot of ways. I have learned to understand most things, I have matured. I grew up.

From time to time you cross my mind, and I wonder how you are doing. I wonder what you are up to. If you're happy, if you're sad... Sometimes when I think back on things, it just feels like a dream. A dream that had it's good parts and it's bad parts. It doesn't feel like it was real. Like any of it ever happened.

I haven't seen your face in over a year. I haven't really even spoken to you in over a year. It's weird... Being in love, being swept into a person for so long and then suddenly they're out of your life and they never say a word to you. It just doesn't feel all that right to me.

The last time I physically saw you was at the Japanese Festival, in Downtown. I didn't see your face. I saw you walk in the distance. I knew that walk, I knew that stride. My adrenaline pumped, and my heart raced. And I wish I could've said "hello"... But I knew you would've just casted me away. I know you really don't want anything to do with me, and I understand that. But... I wish you did.

I am over you, for the most part. You never really get over your first love. You will always hold a place in my memory and in my heart. As much as I hate you some days... You will always be there. And now I wish, a little over two years later, that we could reconnect and be on speaking terms again. But a wish is a wish. Something that rarely ever happens.

I just really don't understand why you still loathe me so. Times are different, I am different, I'm sure you are as well...

I know you probably wont ever see this, but I hope you do. I hope you see and understand...

~

2/10/2010

Holiday

"Holiday"

Oh she wants to be a stage star
Live the life in New York City,
Become the next Broadway Baby
But she's trapped in this run down town
I want to save her life,
Take her to where she wishes to be
Tonight will be the night I'll tell her
I'll tell her

If you ran away with me,
Everyday would be like a holiday
Valentine's, Christmas, even Halloween
Your life would be filled with gifts and surprises,
And every night a kiss that'll set your soul free
So run away with me,
I'll set you onto the stage
Close your eyes and sing
And let yourself float away
On our Holiday
Our Holiday

We're driving in my car,
Driving down the street
A billboard passes by,
Stressing the life of not being on your feet
She sighed in her grief,
Thinking about being a star
I stopped the car and grabbed her hand
And I told her,
I told her

If you ran away with me,
Everyday would be like a holiday
Valentine's, Christmas, even Halloween
Your life would be filled with gifts and surprises,
And every night a kiss that'll set your soul free
So run away with me,
I'll set you onto the stage
Close your eyes and sing
And let yourself float away
On our Holiday
Our Holiday

I want to take her away,
Put her mind as ease
I might not be completely on my feet,
But I will make it happen,
You will see...

If you ran away with me,
Everyday would be like a holiday
Valentine's, Christmas, even Halloween
Your life would be filled with gifts and surprises,
And every night a kiss that'll set your soul free
So run away with me,
I'll set you onto the stage
Close your eyes and sing
And let yourself float away
On our Holiday
Our Holiday

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I just wrote this today. I had a tune in my head and went with it. Yay for some music progress~! Steal this and I will denut you. <3

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1/27/2010

Viva Las Vegas

Angel and I went to Las Vegas last week for a few days.

It was fun.

Saw the Phantom of the Opera and the Tournament of Kings dinner & show, got scammed into buying a mug and a picture, got a water massage thingy, bought cocktails and margaritas, bought a new "toy"- Virgil II ;), played drunken chess, walked the Strip, saw Yoda and a Storm Trooper, almost got Gang-Banged by a bunch of crack-head black dudes, gambled and won $7, collected about a pound of the whore cards, touched a man chest D:, watched the Fremont Light Show, had loud crazy sex, got scammed by a psychic, over stuffed myself with mashed potatoes and gravy, lol'd at the Holden Townhall, "Do you think they sell M&M's at the M&M store?" XD, almost died driving down there because of the weather...

Yeah. That's about it. XP

Good 21st Birthday!

The fam got me a 32" HDTV and Angel got me concert tickets to Muse. <3

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Oh.

Angel and I are back together. She broke up with Tia for me. (:

12/06/2009

Always Be My Baby

We were as one babe, for a moment in time. And it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine... Now you want to be free, so I'm letting you fly. 'Cause I know in my heart, babe, our love will never die, no...

You'll always be a part of me, I'm a part of you indefinitely. Girl don't you know you can't escape me? Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're never gonna shake me... Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby...

I ain't gonna cry, no. And I won't beg you to stay. If you're determined to leave, girl, I will not stand in your way... But inevitably you'll be back again 'cause ya know in your heart, babe, our love will never end, no...

You'll always be a part of me, I'm a part of you indefinitely. Girl don't you know you can't escape me? Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're never gonna shake me... Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby...

I know that you'll be back, girl. When your days and your nights get a little bit colder. I know that you'll be right back... Baby believe me it's only a matter of time...

You'll always be a part of me... And I'm a part of you indefinitely... Girl don't you know you can't escape me...? Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on... Time can't erase a feeling this strong... Now way you're ever gonna shake me... Oh darling... Because you'll always be my... My baby...

You'll always be a part of me, I'm a part of you indefinitely. Girl don't you know you can't escape me? Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're never gonna shake me... Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby...

Always be my baby...

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Just another girl to add to the list of leaving me for their Ex... I did nothing wrong this time, and I know that. I did everything for her. I was faithful, respectful... We were perfect together. We never fought, we agreed on most things, we treated each other well. She was absolutely, postively perfect for me. She was the girl I had been searching for. I wish I didn't find her the way I did, but things happen for a reason. And I do not regret the way things started between us, but I really with they didn't go that way. Oh well.

We weren't together for very long, but I fell deeply in love with this girl... She and I dated for about a month and a half, and she left me just a week before our one month of being official. I don't know how or why I felt so deeply for her in such a sort period of time, but I did. I do. Her reasoning for leaving was because she had too much going on in her mind... She has this Ex that was her first love who is always tailing her, always making her feel like shit. They are always in a constant state of fighting and bickering over small, petty things, but mainly... Me.

Before she had decided to get with the person before I, she was going to get back with this Ex. But as a "fuck you" to the Ex, she got with the one before me. But she soon regretted the decision and was going to go back to the Ex, until she had realized she had feelings for me and went after me instead. Throughout our almost flawless relationship, she had still been talking with this Ex and seeing her on her days off. She became confused, lost in her own emotions. She very much was still in love with this Ex, but was also madly in love with me...

She did not want to hurt her Ex any longer, but she did not want to hurt me either. She knew if she had stayed with me, the Ex would have been incredibly hurt. But if she left me for the Ex, same situation. So she decided to leave me anyway with the excuse of "I don't know what to think anymore. I don't feel like myself anymore. I don't know who I am and I don't know what I want anymore." But I am not stupid, I am not dense... At first I was very positive about the situation. I knew she'd realize how perfect I am for her and how much better I am for her than this Ex. But as the days went by, I grew weaker and weaker... I saw things happening via Myspace and through the way she was acting...

It's over. And I unfortunately knew it.

So last night during a phone conversation with her...

I let her go... I set her free...

I told her to go back to her Ex... I told her to go be happy and make the Ex happy. That was all that mattered. Her happiness. And if she realizes that she is not as happy with her Ex, then I will welcome her back with open arms. I told her that I am not going anywhere, that I will still be in her life.

But I do not know if that is a promise I can keep.

It would be too painful for me to see or hear about her with the Ex...

But at least I love her enough to let her go...

I know some people reading this are grinning, laughing at my misery and thinking I deserved it. But this time, I did not. I did nothing wrong. I was not the bad guy this time. But I still got abandoned...

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11/11/2009

Non-Discrimination Laws?

LDS Church representatives discuss support of non-discrimination ordinance

SALT LAKE CITY -- KSL's Doug Wright opened his radio show Wednesday morning with what everyone is still talking about: a very strong statement from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in support of issues of extreme importance to Utah's gay community.

LDS Church representatives joined Doug Wright's discussion on Salt Lake City's newly-passed non-discrimination ordinances. They said the Church simply did what was right for all citizens of the city.

"We're extremely encouraged by the reaction. Across the board, very, very positive reaction," said Michael Otterson, managing director of public affairs for the LDS Church.

On Tuesday night, Otterson read a statement from Church leaders, who support the rights to employment and housing.

Otterson said the city invited Church comment, and a number of conversations with Utah's gay community leaders preceded the meeting.

"I also am absolutely delighted to be standing in solidarity with The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in support," former Salt Lake City council member Deeda Seed said.
Rep. Christine Johnson, D-Salt Lake City, said, "I'd like to publicly thank The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It is a very compassionate and brave step to endorse this ordinance."

The Church representatives said they anticipate negative reaction from gay groups who want more and from political conservatives who fear concessions. They are, however, encouraged by what happened Tuesday night.

"I think this was democracy at its finest," Otterson said. "When you get people of very different viewpoints, very different perspectives, coming together and expressing themselves in very respectful ways - I am impressed by that."

Bill Evans, director of community relations for the LDS Church, said, "To see individuals of good will wanting to come together to find ways to communicate more effectively … and as that happens,
I think we'll see that kind of good will increase."

In what is now a diverse community, they said, this was a return to civility

Interesting...

10/27/2009

A Poem

BEST POEM IN THE WORLD

I was shocked, confused, bewildered
As I entered Heaven's Door,
Not by the beauty of it all,
Nor the lights or its decor.

But it was the folks in Heaven
Who made me sputter and gasp--
The thieves, the liars, the sinners,
The alcoholics and the trash!

There stood the kid from seventh grade
Who swiped my lunch money twice.
Next to him was my old neighbour
Who never said anything nice.

Herb, who I always thought
Was rotting away in hell,
Was sitting pretty on cloud nine,
Lookin incredibly well!

I nudged Jesus, 'What's The Deal?
I would love to hear your take.
How'd all these sinners get up here?
God Must've made a mistake.

And why's everyone so quiet,
So sombre- give me a clue!?
"Hush, Child," he said "they're all in shock
no on thought they'd be seeing you!"

JUDGE NOT:
Remember... Just going to church doesn't make you a Chirsitan any more than standing in your garrage makes you a car!

Every Saint has a PAST...
Every Sinner has a Future!

8/08/2009

Without You

I wrote this a while ago, actually. And I just noticed I never posted it.

It was inspired by a friend. I was talking to him one day and some of the lyrics came right from his mouth.

Its about a person being hurt by someone they thought was pretty much a goddess, then realizing she really wasn't.

So. I share with you, my new masterpiece - "Without You".

>Verse<
I never thought, I never thought I could go on without you
But here I am singing a song about going on without you
I always thought, I always thought that we would last forever
But everyday I remember reasons why I am so much better off without you

>Bridge<
And no, I wont, be the first to fall out of the race
And no, I wont, be the last to forget your face

>Chorus<
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back onto my horse
And I'm riding onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you

>Verse<
I never thought, I never thought I could ever feel this way about you
But everyday you give me more reason to be without you

>Bridge<
And no, I wont, be the first to quit the game
And no, I wont, be the last to forget your name

>Chorus<
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back into reality
And I'm going onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you

>Verse<
I never thought, I never thought I could go on without you
But here I am singing a song about going on without you
I always thought, I always thought I could change the wrong about you
But that was a waste
Because the wrong with why I can live on without you

>Bridge<
And no, I wont, be the first to fall out of the race
And no, I wont, be the last to forget your face

>Chorus<
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back onto my horse
And I'm riding onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back into reality
And I'm going onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you

>End<
I never thought, I never thought I could ever feel this way about you
But everyday you give me more reason to be without you

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