Holiday

"Holiday"

Oh she wants to be a stage star
Live the life in New York City,
Become the next Broadway Baby
But she's trapped in this run down town
I want to save her life,
Take her to where she wishes to be
Tonight will be the night I'll tell her
I'll tell her

If you ran away with me,
Everyday would be like a holiday
Valentine's, Christmas, even Halloween
Your life would be filled with gifts and surprises,
And every night a kiss that'll set your soul free
So run away with me,
I'll set you onto the stage
Close your eyes and sing
And let yourself float away
On our Holiday
Our Holiday

We're driving in my car,
Driving down the street
A billboard passes by,
Stressing the life of not being on your feet
She sighed in her grief,
Thinking about being a star
I stopped the car and grabbed her hand
And I told her,
I told her

If you ran away with me,
Everyday would be like a holiday
Valentine's, Christmas, even Halloween
Your life would be filled with gifts and surprises,
And every night a kiss that'll set your soul free
So run away with me,
I'll set you onto the stage
Close your eyes and sing
And let yourself float away
On our Holiday
Our Holiday

I want to take her away,
Put her mind as ease
I might not be completely on my feet,
But I will make it happen,
You will see...

If you ran away with me,
Everyday would be like a holiday
Valentine's, Christmas, even Halloween
Your life would be filled with gifts and surprises,
And every night a kiss that'll set your soul free
So run away with me,
I'll set you onto the stage
Close your eyes and sing
And let yourself float away
On our Holiday
Our Holiday

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I just wrote this today. I had a tune in my head and went with it. Yay for some music progress~! Steal this and I will denut you. <3

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Viva Las Vegas

Angel and I went to Las Vegas last week for a few days.

It was fun.

Saw the Phantom of the Opera and the Tournament of Kings dinner & show, got scammed into buying a mug and a picture, got a water massage thingy, bought cocktails and margaritas, bought a new "toy"- Virgil II ;), played drunken chess, walked the Strip, saw Yoda and a Storm Trooper, almost got Gang-Banged by a bunch of crack-head black dudes, gambled and won $7, collected about a pound of the whore cards, touched a man chest D:, watched the Fremont Light Show, had loud crazy sex, got scammed by a psychic, over stuffed myself with mashed potatoes and gravy, lol'd at the Holden Townhall, "Do you think they sell M&M's at the M&M store?" XD, almost died driving down there because of the weather...

Yeah. That's about it. XP

Good 21st Birthday!

The fam got me a 32" HDTV and Angel got me concert tickets to Muse. <3

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Oh.

Angel and I are back together. She broke up with Tia for me. (:

Always Be My Baby

We were as one babe, for a moment in time. And it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine... Now you want to be free, so I'm letting you fly. 'Cause I know in my heart, babe, our love will never die, no...

You'll always be a part of me, I'm a part of you indefinitely. Girl don't you know you can't escape me? Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're never gonna shake me... Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby...

I ain't gonna cry, no. And I won't beg you to stay. If you're determined to leave, girl, I will not stand in your way... But inevitably you'll be back again 'cause ya know in your heart, babe, our love will never end, no...

You'll always be a part of me, I'm a part of you indefinitely. Girl don't you know you can't escape me? Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're never gonna shake me... Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby...

I know that you'll be back, girl. When your days and your nights get a little bit colder. I know that you'll be right back... Baby believe me it's only a matter of time...

You'll always be a part of me... And I'm a part of you indefinitely... Girl don't you know you can't escape me...? Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on... Time can't erase a feeling this strong... Now way you're ever gonna shake me... Oh darling... Because you'll always be my... My baby...

You'll always be a part of me, I'm a part of you indefinitely. Girl don't you know you can't escape me? Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby... And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong. No way you're never gonna shake me... Oh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby...

Always be my baby...

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Just another girl to add to the list of leaving me for their Ex... I did nothing wrong this time, and I know that. I did everything for her. I was faithful, respectful... We were perfect together. We never fought, we agreed on most things, we treated each other well. She was absolutely, postively perfect for me. She was the girl I had been searching for. I wish I didn't find her the way I did, but things happen for a reason. And I do not regret the way things started between us, but I really with they didn't go that way. Oh well.

We weren't together for very long, but I fell deeply in love with this girl... She and I dated for about a month and a half, and she left me just a week before our one month of being official. I don't know how or why I felt so deeply for her in such a sort period of time, but I did. I do. Her reasoning for leaving was because she had too much going on in her mind... She has this Ex that was her first love who is always tailing her, always making her feel like shit. They are always in a constant state of fighting and bickering over small, petty things, but mainly... Me.

Before she had decided to get with the person before I, she was going to get back with this Ex. But as a "fuck you" to the Ex, she got with the one before me. But she soon regretted the decision and was going to go back to the Ex, until she had realized she had feelings for me and went after me instead. Throughout our almost flawless relationship, she had still been talking with this Ex and seeing her on her days off. She became confused, lost in her own emotions. She very much was still in love with this Ex, but was also madly in love with me...

She did not want to hurt her Ex any longer, but she did not want to hurt me either. She knew if she had stayed with me, the Ex would have been incredibly hurt. But if she left me for the Ex, same situation. So she decided to leave me anyway with the excuse of "I don't know what to think anymore. I don't feel like myself anymore. I don't know who I am and I don't know what I want anymore." But I am not stupid, I am not dense... At first I was very positive about the situation. I knew she'd realize how perfect I am for her and how much better I am for her than this Ex. But as the days went by, I grew weaker and weaker... I saw things happening via Myspace and through the way she was acting...

It's over. And I unfortunately knew it.

So last night during a phone conversation with her...

I let her go... I set her free...

I told her to go back to her Ex... I told her to go be happy and make the Ex happy. That was all that mattered. Her happiness. And if she realizes that she is not as happy with her Ex, then I will welcome her back with open arms. I told her that I am not going anywhere, that I will still be in her life.

But I do not know if that is a promise I can keep.

It would be too painful for me to see or hear about her with the Ex...

But at least I love her enough to let her go...

I know some people reading this are grinning, laughing at my misery and thinking I deserved it. But this time, I did not. I did nothing wrong. I was not the bad guy this time. But I still got abandoned...

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Non-Discrimination Laws?

LDS Church representatives discuss support of non-discrimination ordinance

SALT LAKE CITY -- KSL's Doug Wright opened his radio show Wednesday morning with what everyone is still talking about: a very strong statement from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in support of issues of extreme importance to Utah's gay community.

LDS Church representatives joined Doug Wright's discussion on Salt Lake City's newly-passed non-discrimination ordinances. They said the Church simply did what was right for all citizens of the city.

"We're extremely encouraged by the reaction. Across the board, very, very positive reaction," said Michael Otterson, managing director of public affairs for the LDS Church.

On Tuesday night, Otterson read a statement from Church leaders, who support the rights to employment and housing.

Otterson said the city invited Church comment, and a number of conversations with Utah's gay community leaders preceded the meeting.

"I also am absolutely delighted to be standing in solidarity with The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in support," former Salt Lake City council member Deeda Seed said.
Rep. Christine Johnson, D-Salt Lake City, said, "I'd like to publicly thank The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It is a very compassionate and brave step to endorse this ordinance."

The Church representatives said they anticipate negative reaction from gay groups who want more and from political conservatives who fear concessions. They are, however, encouraged by what happened Tuesday night.

"I think this was democracy at its finest," Otterson said. "When you get people of very different viewpoints, very different perspectives, coming together and expressing themselves in very respectful ways - I am impressed by that."

Bill Evans, director of community relations for the LDS Church, said, "To see individuals of good will wanting to come together to find ways to communicate more effectively … and as that happens,
I think we'll see that kind of good will increase."

In what is now a diverse community, they said, this was a return to civility

Interesting...

A Poem

BEST POEM IN THE WORLD

I was shocked, confused, bewildered
As I entered Heaven's Door,
Not by the beauty of it all,
Nor the lights or its decor.

But it was the folks in Heaven
Who made me sputter and gasp--
The thieves, the liars, the sinners,
The alcoholics and the trash!

There stood the kid from seventh grade
Who swiped my lunch money twice.
Next to him was my old neighbour
Who never said anything nice.

Herb, who I always thought
Was rotting away in hell,
Was sitting pretty on cloud nine,
Lookin incredibly well!

I nudged Jesus, 'What's The Deal?
I would love to hear your take.
How'd all these sinners get up here?
God Must've made a mistake.

And why's everyone so quiet,
So sombre- give me a clue!?
"Hush, Child," he said "they're all in shock
no on thought they'd be seeing you!"

JUDGE NOT:
Remember... Just going to church doesn't make you a Chirsitan any more than standing in your garrage makes you a car!

Every Saint has a PAST...
Every Sinner has a Future!

Without You

I wrote this a while ago, actually. And I just noticed I never posted it.

It was inspired by a friend. I was talking to him one day and some of the lyrics came right from his mouth.

Its about a person being hurt by someone they thought was pretty much a goddess, then realizing she really wasn't.

So. I share with you, my new masterpiece - "Without You".

>Verse<
I never thought, I never thought I could go on without you
But here I am singing a song about going on without you
I always thought, I always thought that we would last forever
But everyday I remember reasons why I am so much better off without you

>Bridge<
And no, I wont, be the first to fall out of the race
And no, I wont, be the last to forget your face

>Chorus<
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back onto my horse
And I'm riding onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you

>Verse<
I never thought, I never thought I could ever feel this way about you
But everyday you give me more reason to be without you

>Bridge<
And no, I wont, be the first to quit the game
And no, I wont, be the last to forget your name

>Chorus<
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back into reality
And I'm going onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you

>Verse<
I never thought, I never thought I could go on without you
But here I am singing a song about going on without you
I always thought, I always thought I could change the wrong about you
But that was a waste
Because the wrong with why I can live on without you

>Bridge<
And no, I wont, be the first to fall out of the race
And no, I wont, be the last to forget your face

>Chorus<
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back onto my horse
And I'm riding onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
I'm smiling and my head is hung up high
I've climbed back into reality
And I'm going onto a future that does not involve you
Now that I'm going on, I'm walking strong
Without you

>End<
I never thought, I never thought I could ever feel this way about you
But everyday you give me more reason to be without you

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SCANDAL

Oh. Em. Gee.

So this band, SCANDAL, just made life a lot more livable.

You don't even know. O_O



OMG the drummer~~~! XF

Scandalous Volcanos

I've been having the same dreams for the past week, and I don't know why.

Four dreams in one night. The first two are the same, and the second two are the same.

The first two consist of me having a secret affair with a girl that I do not reconize or know. She doesn't have a name, either. In these dreams I sneak around with her and we have sex in secretive places. The first dream is of this, the second is of the same thing, but from a different angle or prospective.

The second two dreams consist of a Volcano erupting here in Salt Lake and I am running away from it, while trying to save those who just happen to be with me. At the beginning of the dream, I'm at a Party or at some sort of a Club, and the people and I go Downtown and a Volcano erupts and we run away from it, trying to find a safe point. Kinda like that movie "Dante's Peak". The people I always end up with are Chris, two twins I don't know, Bailey, her baby (Quinton), and Ali and Ansony. Why these people? I have -no- idea. This dream repeats itself twice just like the first.

I always wake up before we die.

Why these dreams? They don't relate to each other, but yet, they do. Why?

Can anyone figure out what these dreams mean?

I found out a few things:

Volcano - To see a volcano in your dream, indicates that you are unable to control your emotions, particularly if the volcano is erupting. You are ready to burst. The end result may be damaging and hurtful, especially to those around you. If the volcano is dormant, then it represents past issues that have been resolved and put to the rest.

Sex - To dream about sex, refers to the psychological completion and the integration of contrasting aspects of the Self. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Alternatively and a more direct interpretation of the dream, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love. If you are looking for a place to have sex, then the dream may be analogous to your search for intimacy and closeness.

Running - To dream that you are running away from someone, indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears.

Ex - To dream about your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend or ex-husband/wife or that you and your ex got back together again, suggests that something or someone in your current life that is bringing out similar feelings you felt during the relationship with your ex. The dream may be a way of alerting you to the same or similar behavior in a current relationship. What you learn from that previous relationship, may need to be applied to the present one so that you do no repeat the same mistake. Alternatively, past lovers often highlight the positive experiences you had with that person.

Alternatively, seeing your ex in your dream also signifies aspects of yourself that you have x'd out or neglected.

Yeah, I really don't know...

Some of these sound about right though. What do you think? I really need some help, guys...

Colorado, Say What? Part 2

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Sorry about the delay, I got -really- busy for some odd reason. oO

Anyway.

We stopped in this little town called Leremie or something like that to have lunch. We parked in front of a McDonald's and ate FUCKIN' SALADS. XD Don't ask. We sat inside Atty's car and ate and I noticed on the map that there was a short cut to where we were going. MapQuest directed us to go through Cheyenne then go down from there to Fort Collins. But I noticed another freeway on the Map that goes straight from where we were into Fort Collins. Hella. So we took that route.

Funny thing. So Wyoming is mostly green fields of hills and small mountains off to the distance, right? Well, this was our scenery the whole time minus the random pink hills I think I already talked about and the Butt Crack Canyons. Well, the immediate second we crossed the border from Wyoming into Colorado the scenery completely changed. Suddenly there were pretty green pine trees every where, mountains, and really cool rock formations. Totally threw us for a loop.

Long story short, we finally make it into Fort Collins or where ever it was we were at. The secretive short cut we took drove us straight into the Downtown area of the place and OMG it was awesome! Imagine Downtown Salt Lake City mixed in with Downtown Murray and Magna with a bit of the Gateway Mall. Yeah. That was it. There were so many Bars and Coffee Shops I didn't know what to do with myself. We finally met up with Tory and a few of her friends at this small little plaza thing with these epic jumping fountains like you see on Rollercoaster Tycoon. Tory and Atty had a moment, then I had to shit bricks about how tall Tory is. XD Hoolllyyy shit.

So about this time Atty was starting to get slap happy because we had just driven six and a half hours and she didn't get much sleep the night before. So Tory offered to drive us to this chick's house. Oh god. Tory has a her Driver's License, BUT she hasn't driven since she got it. D: So it was pretty much like driving with someone who hasn't ever driven in their life. And I was afeared for mine. O_O There were so many Round Abouts, too. It was retarded. When Atty was Slap Happy, Tory said she hated them and Atty corrected her, saying they're called "Roond Aboots" in this weird British Accient. I laughed so so hard. XD

So we get to this chick's house, and she showed us her Farret and Atty made Mii's on the chick's Wii. I wasn't really interested in anything except the chick's dog and cat. OMG they were so cute. The cat looked EXACTLY like Eddi but it was a boy and he wasn't as fluffy. It was trippy. The dog was stubby and had a big head. He was really cute too. So we were there for about an hour and the whole time I just played with the animals.

After that we went to Tory's house and unloaded all of our shit into her bedroom and we sat down and played Fatal Frame. I remember playing it before with Atty and a few other people, but I didn't remember it very well. The voice acting made me Lol because of how bad it is ("With this Camera..." XD), and I was getting way too interested in what the main character's "File" is because she'd pick up random shit and place it in her magical "File" and I was soo interersted in what this File really is. XD I also was getting so mad at the Dead People's random journal entries they wrote right before they died. How retarded is that? I had to make the comment "Duh. What do they do? Turn to the Ghosts and say 'Whoa, whoa. Hang on. I have to Blog this first, Ok? My million viewers have to know!' ... Yeah". Tory and Atty laughed their asses off. It wasn't that funny. XD

A while later Atty finally passed out and so Tory popped in the movie "Repo: The Genetic Opera". Through out the movie, Atty just flung herself around the bed and whined a lot in her sleep. At one point she full on groped my chest and ass, and she kicked me in the face. Shit kid calm down. XD It was Ok though, Tory and I had a good laugh about it. When RTGO was over, Tory popped in "Howl's Moving Castle" and Atty woke up to watch it. About fifteen mintues in, I hella passed out. I ALWAYS pass out when I try to watch that movie. I have never finished it. XD I don't know why it puts me to sleep. Its not boring or anything, it just does.

The next morning we all got up and went to Ihop. Yay Ihop! Its my favorite. XD We had breakfast, then we went around the corner to this chick Tiffany's place. We chilled and talked with her for a while and I played with her dogs, then we went over to this chick Kay's place to hang out with Tory's Cosplay buddies. Her aparment looked like the remains of an incredible Cosplay Orgy that exploded all over the walls and furniture. No joke. XD It was pimp, though. We then all just sat in Kay's room and chit chatted about Anime Conventions, Cosplay, XDCDX, their Cosplay Group, blah blah. The whole time I just laid down on the floor and listened because I couldn't really relate to much they were talking about because I've been out of the whole XDCDX loop for about a year and a half now. So I passed in and out the whole time we were there. They seemed like cool and fun people though, for sure. They made me giggle quite a bit.

We said our good-byes, then we went back to Tory's house, packed the car up, and headed home.

The whole trip home I drove and Atty was asleep in the back seat and Tory and I talked the whole time about our love lives, work lives, social lives, etc. etc. It was very nice bonding time with Tory. I absolutely loved it. She said she'd teach me how to sew and we decided to do a couple of cosplay things together. I also told her my side of the XDCDX story and why everyone dislikes me, and she like most people, found it to be bullshit. Gosh there was so much XDCDX talk it was racking my brain. I don't really think about them or talk about them normally so it was weird talking about them again. Oh well. I didn't really know what else to talk about the whole trip because thats how I knew Atty and Tory - was through XDCDX.

The drive home went by a lot faster than it did on the way there, which was nice. Oh yeah! Ok so about a third of the way home, Tory and I REALLY had to pee so we stopped in this little town and we wasted 20 fucking minutes trying to find somewhere to piss. >< AND it was raining buckets so that made it even worse. D: XD Anyway. When we got home Atty and Tory visited with Cameron and I at our apartment for about twenty minutes then they left. Cameron laid with me in my room and we talked for about an hour about my trip and how XDCDX was racking my brain - Especially Lex. Lex is a very very touchy thing with Cameron and I. I told him I had described to Atty my Theory about Lex and how I know everything was her fault and Atty totally agreed with my theory and said it sounded about right (Yay run-on sentences XD). After a depressing talk with Cameron I hella fucking passed out around 0730.

All in all, I had a pretty good time. It was a nice little trip. I sure hope when Tory moves here she doesn't turn out to be a flake like everyone else related to those people because I really really like her and I want to be BFFs with her. She got under my skin that well.

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Colorado, Say What? Part 1

I was standing in line with Dana, Marcus, and Saul waiting to ride "The Rocket: Re-Entry" at Lagoon when my phone buzzed about five times in a row. I thought, "shit kid, calm down!" so I pulled out my phone.

Atty (from XDCDX) had sent me five messages.

So I opened the messages and read through each one. I don't remember what it EXACTLY said, but pretty much she came up with this elaborate plan and begged me to drive with her to Colorado to pick up her Girlfriend (Tory) and bring her back along with some of her things because she's moving here.

Huh.

I got onto Re-Entry, shat large and uncomfortable bricks, got off, then text Atty back and told her of course I'd go with her. :3

So we planned on leaving Wednesday Morning (6/1) and be back Friday Morning (6/3) so I could be back to get some sleep before I had to work.

I figured I might as well go because I never really do anything on my days off and this gave me the opportunity to have bonding time with Atty because I didn't really know her plus I had never been to Colorado and I frickin' LOVE her girlfriend and I -really- wanted to meet her in person! :D

Tory and I had never really formally met in person. I think we stood next to each other at AO'09 and commented and giggled about something together but that was really it. And after that Con I met up with Atty at Koko Kitchen in Downtown and she gave me Tory's number and told me to talk to her so I did and now I love the girl to deaff.

Anyway. Atty came and picked me up around 1230 and our journey began.

Destination: Fort Collins, CO.

She had told me it was a 9 hour drive, so I was prepared.

She made me the Navigator, so I had the map. It was directions from MapQuest along with a map.

It wasn't going to take nine hours. The paper said 6 hours and 58 minutes.

*palm to face*

That was a little more durable.

So we hit the road, and we immediately began conversations.

We talked about a lot of things. Of course, it's Atty, and I know her from XDCDX, so I wasn't really quite sure what to talk about so we talked about the old XDCDX days a lot and Ali quite a bit. I told her the WHOLE WhittyxAli story, the Horrors and the Parts that are so cute you want to rip your eyeballs out.

We pretty much would swap stories. She told me about her life with Kada-- Sorry, Stacie or Stacy or however the girl spells her name, what happened back when she was with this guy Keith, and how she met Tory and the whole how AttyxTory came to be. That was a big AWE fest. XD

We talked about sex quite a bit as well. Very casually. It didn't bother me. Sex discussions don't bother me one bit. I actually like talking about sex. It tells you a lot about a person from hearing their stories and them explaining how they are in the sack, y'know? (Favorite quote from this Conversation - "I'll do you Tomorrow" XD Lol.)

Through these discussions I learned a lot of new things about Atty and my old friends, and I think she learned a lot as well.

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On the way there, we noticed a lot of the scenery. We drove passed these weird Hills that looked like a bunch of ass-cracks so we called them the Butt-Crack Hills. And immediately after we stated this, there was a sign for "Church Butte Road" and we lol'd hardcore. Of course, we read it as Church Butt, not Butte. XD

Not too long after that there was a pack of Wild Horses and Atty got soo Gay-Excited about them. Then later there was the BIGGEST Bull we have ever seen in our lives. We flipped shit about that damn Bull forever.

Throughout this drive we witnessed different weather as well. Off to the South was a wicked Lightning Storm and to the East were these really awesome looking clouds that went on forever.

I also noticed that most of Wyoming was just really green hills and small mountains off in the distance. It was very dull. There really wasn't anything amazing to see. Except these really random pink hills we saw and Atty said that we are going to live in one of the Hills with Tory and Megan Fox in Hobbit Holes. oO? XD

When we reached Evanston, WY, we saw all sorts of Fireworks advertisments. And after that, I swear every mile there was a frickin' sign for Fireworks. Don't think they like Fireworks in Wyoming, do you? XD

My favorite part of the Evanston thing was was there was a random little building off of the side of the freeway that said "FIREWORKS" really huge and to the left of the builing, and on the other side in very huge and apparent writing said "LIQUOR". I shat bricks. I remember Atty was talking about something serious and I had to interupt and point out the lol factor of that builidng. We lol'd a lot then got serious again. Go us. XD

We left Salt Lake with about half a tank, and about two and a half hours into the drive we were running low on fuel. And for about five miles straight, I swear, every Bilboard was of the Little America Hotel and how great it was. We were cracking jokes about it and being really lost about the fact that there might be a Little America Hotel in the middle of no where. But, alas, there WAS, and it was our Savior! It had a Gas Station near it with relatively cheaper gas prices. So from that day forward, Atty and I are fans of Little America. *adds on Facebook*

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Stay Tuned for "Colorado, Say What? Part 2" Coming soon!

I am tired. I will write Part 2 later. :P